Deb Doodles

2009-08-23T15:57:00.000-07:00

Scott has been begging me all summer to go on horse ride with him and I have reluctant because everytime he goes he shows me a new wound or tells me how his horse slid and landed on him or other various tramatic experiences. He goes every Monday with his dad and cousin and one time when they were on a ride he took his camera and took pictures of the wild flowers (which he knows I LOVE ALL flowers) and brought them home as bribery to get me to go on a ride with him. He was thrilled when I agreed to go with him to see the wildflowers. I took a day off work and we went on the most amazing ride I have ever had on a horse in my life (which isn't much) but it was SO amazing!!! We went up American Fork Canyon behind Tibble Fork and at the very first of the ride just above the resevoir through some small creeks that run into Tibble Fork were literally hundreds of monarch butterflies. In fact there were SO many that I thought they were little fairies all around me sprinkling color on me and my horse. It was such a magic moment that I found myself flapping my arms to encourage more movement. A few of them followed us the entire ride which ended up just over 5 hours. The rest of the ride was simply one magic moment after another. We saw two fawns, squirrels, more butterflies and when we got to the top, where the wildflowers were there was a hovering bald eagle! Can you believe it? I promise it is the truth!! THEN......as we were starting to descend we were passing some beaver ponds and there in the middle was a moose! Absolutely beautiful! I couldn't have asked for a more perfect day!

We got a few pics but none of the animals because Rio, Scott's horse, did NOT cooperate very well! So here are a few pics of my perfect day! I will NEVER forget that AWESOME horse ride! Now....I am begging Scott to take me again!

I LOVE SUMMER!!!!!

2009-06-05T09:01:00.000-07:00

I think this was me in a previous life! I laugh every time I see this picture!

Since my last blog was about winter, I thought it might be a good time to post another blog! I have had a perma grin since the sun started shining, the flowers came in full bloom and all the world around me has come back to life!

I love opening my windows and have the crisp canyon breeze flow through my house in the mornings and evenings. There is nothing like walking through the grass and have the small soft blades find their way through my bare toes! My peonies are in full bloom and are so heavy they are kissing the ground but they still exude such a sweet aroma that all that enter my home can enjoy! (they are by the front door) The mountains are SO green, even the trees and bushes are teaching me the millions of shades of green! They are absolutely georgous! Let's talk flowers...... well that may have to be a whole other entry! I am such a flower junkie, I simply can not get enough of them. All kinds, all colors, all shapes, all smells and anywhere they want to bloom! Even in abandoned yards, fields and empty lots they seem to bring color and joy to a field of weeds!

To top it off....I love to be warmed in the sunshine! (I'm not tanning mom!) I am just soaking up the heat!

Winter Funk!

2009-01-26T12:02:00.000-08:00

I love the beauty of winter, I love to ski, I love to go tubing, I love Christmas and all the festivities that go along with it! I love to watch the quiet serene falling snow. I even enjoy being in it as long as I am warm. It reminds me of being a kid when I would go out in the deep snow and dig a hole or hide way back in the pasture and hide from the world and allow the snow and snowflakes to fall upon my face and body. That was when I had SO many questions like; where it was coming from, who was I in this big world and was there really a purpose behind all of this? I often reflect up on those days simply because of the joy and peace I felt as a child in these winter months that now plague me with "funk". Let me define what I call funk.
I am cold. It is dark more hours of the day than it is light. I have no energy to do anything. I have a room in my house that is begging me to organize and de junk it but when I get home from work I want to put on warm, comfy clothes and do nothing. My Saturdays fly by and I don't ever get everything done on my "to do" list. I NEVER take time to be in or enjoy the snow although I often take a moment at work to look out my window and enjoy the view. Scott and I often go for rides up the canyon to enjoy the beauty of it. I have gained 8 lbs. I have no drive to go to the gym nor do I want to go out in the cold. I want to eat comfort food and stay in where it is warm. So I am choosing to stay in the "funk" as long as I keep doing the same thing day after day. I might be part bear and it is my way of hibernating. Lol.
I have no idea why I am blogging about this other than if any of my readers have a secret, advice or a solution to my funk, I am open to feed back. I am pretty sure I am not the only one that feels this, I just know there is a better way to get through the winter than the "funk" way!

SweetheartTag! (well at least I am blogging)

2008-11-10T21:25:00.000-08:00

What is your husbands name? Scott Fagan Durfey

How long have you guys been married? 6 wonderful years 3 fabulous months:)

How long did you date? Hmmmm........(10 minutes) no, really we dated for 3 months and were married 2 months after that BUT I had known him for 5 years!

How old is he? 44 years young!

Who is taller? Scott but I like to tease him that I am when I wear my high heels!

Who can sing best? Me because he won't!

Who is smarter? Scott is by far.... I like to think I am getting smarter!

Who does the laundry? It is a shared chore so I will have to say both of us!

Who pays the bills? I do and I like it!

Who sleeps on the right side of the bed? I do because it is closer to the bathroom!

Who mows the lawn? Bowen, but Scott has few times. I have only mowed one lawn my whole life! (does that make me a princess??)

Who cooks dinner? Sick enough to admit we eat out whenever Scott is in town, I only cook on Sundays, every other day you are on your own here. Bowen and Lexie are both great cooks!

Who is the first to admit when they are wrong? Scott every time......he is such a rough, tough cream puff! That is why I married him!

Who kissed who first? Scott kissed me first and I was in total shock! I didn't think a man THAT HOT would ever kiss me!!!!

Who wears the pants? Me until he comes home then I take my pants off! (oops, did I type that?)

I tag whoever wants to play!

OKLAHOMA!!!

2008-10-10T20:51:00.000-07:00

On September 18th I went all by myself to Oklahoma to see the Graves family! Can I just say.....I had such a great time! I told Kevin and Joni that I have no expectations other that to have fun and that we did. Cassie picked me up at the airport and I was so excited to see her that I kissed her whole face. We had a great visit while driving to pick up Brian, go for a quick tour of Cassies new place (which is darling) and go to Lisa's volleyball game. Lisa is quite the volleyball player and it was a blast cheering for her and her team! (like I need an excuse to be loud) I won't bore you with every detail, play by play of my fabulous vacation but let me say this.....we ate great food, we laughed (belly laughter hard) we stayed up late, we cried, we played games, we watched the funniest home movies that would win millions hands down, we went to "the football game", we went to Bricktown in downtown Oklahoma City which is where all these pictures were taken, we went to the parade of homes, we ate at Panera Bread (twice) and I know I am leaving out something because we didn't really sleep much either. Can I just say, I love you Okies! Every one of you and want to thank you for making me feel SO welcome and showing me such a great time! And don't you worry none......I"LL BE BACK! *)

Our Sealing Day and Pictures to Share!

2008-10-10T20:23:00.000-07:00

Scott and I were sealed on Friday, September 5th. Thank you to all those that were with us in spirit and in flesh! :) We felt your love and support! It was THE BEST day of my life! LIFE just doesn't get better than this!

2008 Highlights

2008-09-24T22:34:00.000-07:00

Fun on the horses! Football games and the HOT cheerleaders!
High School Graduation! WAY TO GO LOU!!
Dakota and his CrAzY friends! (I love teenagers!)
Bowen being spaz at tennis! (on purpose)
More fun on the horses!

School dances.....

Updating My Blog!!

2008-09-24T21:52:00.000-07:00

Cassie Joe! These are for YOU! I found these AWESOME pictures of Kolby on Jesica's wedding day. Cassie and Kolby came to Los Hermanos after the ceremony and we celebrated with yummy Mexican food.

Jesica got married to Jeff VanWinkle on December 13th at the Provo Courthouse. They moved to Daytona Beach, Florida on December 18th. We (Scott and I) went to visit them in March and had a fabulous time! We went to Disney Epcot Center on Easter and Jes and I got to spend some time on the beach. (I will post the pictures from that when I find them)I LOVE YOU JES!

Happy 6th Anniversary!

2008-08-22T23:10:00.001-07:00

Today is our six year anniversary! I am home and Scotty is in Detroit. Not the greatest way to celebrate but today has been a great day because I got to talk, text, e-mail and IM Scotty all day. We are going to celebrate our anniversary with a new one on September 5th. We are going to The Mt. Timpanogas Temple and getting sealed for time and ALL ETERNITY! (hope that's long enough) It has been the BEST 6 years of my life and I am SO blessed to be married to my best friend and such a georgeous man! I love you Scotty!

Trever is HOME!

2008-08-22T23:04:00.000-07:00

So....on Wednesday, August 13th (Happy Birthday Andrea) we went to the airport and picked up Trever (Elder Durfey) Doesn't he look great?!

WOW....Don't look now but I have a new entry!

2008-08-10T17:25:00.000-07:00

I know....it has almost two years since I have blogged and I have no good excuses why. I have been inspired by all my family and friends to start up again and post more regularly. Thank you fellow bloggers!! (you know who you are)
A whole lot has happened since my last blog and I know I would leave some important details out if I tried to start the "catch up" game so I won't! I will just blog about the most recent news.
Trever will be home Wednesday, from serving his mission in East Lansing, Michigan. Scott is flying out Tuesday morning to surprise him. They are having a farewell fireside for all the missionaries going home and Scott will "miraculously" show up to that and Trever will probably be on the stage simplly because he is the AP. Then Bryan, Kori and I along with all the kids will ride up in a stretch hummer to pick him up and we will all ride home! I AM SOOOO EXCITED!
Today, Scott and I met with the Stake President and we were just finishing up the last of our "steps" to get sealed. I received a hand signed letter from the first Presidency saying that my previous sealing was cancelled and that I was to bring that letter to the temple with me when Scott and I get sealed! What an incredible, spiritual day! We are just waiting now for clearance and we will be setting a date. We, ironically, celebrate our 6th wedding anniversary on August 22nd but Scott will be out of town that day on business. So we will have two days to celebrate our marriage! I think the entire month of August should be dedicated to celebrating Scott and Deb's uniting. It took long enough and I am SO glad I am married to him. I had NO idea marriage could be this GREAT! I am truly the luckiest wife on the planet! I LOVE being married to my best friend. OK....ok.....enough mush but it is ALL true!

Fun at Seaworld!

2006-12-06T12:59:00.000-08:00

Waiting for the show to start.

WOW....they are amazing!
Lex and Kaeci with Grandpa Durfey
Kate at the beach......she LOVES the sand!

Football on the Beach!!

2006-12-06T12:55:00.000-08:00

More......

2006-12-06T10:23:00.000-08:00

Havin' fun in the cold water!
In front of "It's a Small World" at night
Main Street in Disneyland
Fun at SeaWorld

More California Pictures!

2006-12-06T09:59:00.000-08:00

The family on the beach
Yes this really is where we stayed this was the walkway to each others condos.
This is the whole Fam Damily! Minus Trever and Jess. (they were in our hearts)
The California girls at their finest!
The pool and the beach at the condo

Yes we are burying our cousin!

Trip Pictures!!

2006-12-06T09:56:00.000-08:00

Scott and Bowen enjoying the Ocean!
The view of "our" beach!
Bowen was literally in the water ALL day!!
Body surfers at their finest! Aren't they HOT!!!!

More views of "our" beach!

San Diego Soon!

2006-11-17T11:15:00.000-08:00

Look Out Cali...Here We Come!!!

2006-11-17T10:43:00.000-08:00

At 4:00 am Saturday, November 18th, Scott, Lexie, Kaeci, Dakota, Kerbi, Bowen and I are headed to California. We are driving to Vegas for breakfast and then going to Disneyland and California Adventure. We will be there until Tuesday and then we will be going to San Diego to stay in a beach house and then going to Sea World. I am SO excited I don't think I will be able to sleep tonight. I feel like a kid at Christmas time. I will keep you posted with GREAT pictures. We will miss our Jesica while we are gone so we will have to bring her a special surprise back!

More pics of Roxy

2006-11-17T10:40:00.000-08:00

Bitter/Sweet

2006-11-17T10:29:00.000-08:00

We had a tragedy at our house last Friday. Roxy was hit by a car and sweet Bowen watched it happen. He was calling her home and she had just spotted him and jetted across the street right in front of a mom in a SUV. IT WAS HORRIBLE!!! We are still grieving the loss and have shed many tears. We had a little service for her so we all could have some closure. Scott dug a hole in the back yard and said some comforting words and he asked Bowen to say a few words and boy did he ever teach me about love and passion. He talked to his best friend Roxy like she was right there! He let her know she was his VERY best friend and he thanked her for all she had done for him. It was so heart felt and everyone that attended was in tears. What a sweet boy and a great loss! We are still feeling the void in our home!
NOW FOR THE SWEET!!!!!

SURPRISE!!!

2006-11-01T16:05:00.000-08:00

Don't be shocked!!! I am updating my blog! Why.....you ask? Because "I" want to! There have been a lot of things that have shifted, changed, grown, disappeared, etc. Trever is in Traverse City, Michigan serving an LDS Mission and absolutely loving it! Jessica is living in an apartment by UVSC college, working two jobs and learning a lot about being independent! Lexie is enjoying her jr. year in high school with her "boyfriend" Jeron. (yikes!) Kaeci turned 16 today! She is very involved in cheer and friends! Dakota just got a new hair cut because he and all his friends decided to cut mohawks and the school did not approve and had them shave them. (darnit) Kerbi is an official "teenager" she turned 13 in October and she has it "going on" make up, girlfriends, hot boys, cheer and Bowen is sad because he lost his "buddy". Good bye tomboy, hello girly girl! Bowen turned 12 in September and is now a deacon. He is getting all grown up and I have thoroughly enjoyed every stage of his life! Scott is still working for the mortgage business and also working for Invest Tools which is an online program that teaches you how to invest your money without a broker. He travels a lot.....and I mean a lot. He leaves every Wednesday and comes home Saturday afternoon, evening. He is really enjoying it and it working up to being the speaker. He will do it soon! I have watched this man long enought to know that when he "wants" it.....he "gets" it!! Work is the same. I did survive the convention in September and had huge success with the store! That was great! We are planning a vacation with the family the week of Thanksgiving to California. We are going to Disneyland, California Adventure and San Diego Zoo. I am SO excited I can hardly wait! I may keep this updated now that I have a little more time on my hands with Scotty gone but you never know about me. I seem to keep myself busy with updating the house and my retail therapy addiction. Until next time......love and light to all!!

My Pride and Joy!!!

2006-08-21T17:05:00.000-07:00

Gotta Love the Angel Cards!!!

2006-07-20T15:46:00.000-07:00

I have a website I like to visit every once in a while to give me a boost in the middle of the day! This one was to good to just close out of! I picked this card ALL BY MYSELF! Check it out for yourself. http://www.consciousone.com/c1Cards/

Aurora
"You are flying high right now, which may threaten others. But don't descend, because others will soon become inspired by your example."Additional Message: "Your intentions have created an upward trend in your life. New opportunities are coming your way, and your inner and outer self radiates this positive growth. You may worry that others will be jealous of your current and forthcoming success, so you will be sensitive about discussing your achievements. You may also worry about the future, about where your new path is taking you. You may wish for a guarantee of future success.""I am here to help you enjoy the present, and the process of your new venture. Trust that each moment is taking care of itself. God has always taken care of you, and He always will. Ask me to help you stay focused on the now, and to let go of the worry habit so that you can enjoy these gifts. Gratitude is essential right now . . . to keep your flight at a high altitude."

How Could I Say NO??

2006-07-12T16:25:00.000-07:00

On June 25th we went to the Graves (my maiden name) reunion and a kind relative brought 6 puppies to play with the hundreds of children that attend this reunion every year. (smart cousin) Of course Bowen and Kerbi snagged one quick and took a liking to her fast and kept bringing her up to me and asking.......can we keep her?? I had to call Scott (he came late) to warn him about the darling puppies that were attending the Graves reunion this year and I personally think he thought I was nuts. I have been the one always been saying NO...NO....NO....I tell them that "I" will have to take care of the dog and that they tie us down so we can't travel and that "I" am horribly allergic to dog poop and when it gets on me I break out in all kinds of fits! Needless to say "ROXY" is the newest member of the Durfey household and I am (with bouts of frustration) really enjoying her and the kids adore her!!! I have NEVER allowed a dog in my bedroom not to mention on my bed and yes she has been in and on both. She has the funnest personality and I am finding myself like a new mom. Checking on her if she doesn't wake up in the middle of the night and worrying if she is too quiet. I have to say she has won my heart. Just look at her....not to mention the smile on that cute boy of mine's face!

We are Official!

2006-07-12T16:15:00.000-07:00

Scott and I are officially scuba certified! We are just waiting for our cards. Scott went crayfish hunting today and we are having a feast tonight.....I will let you know how it is at a later date. I am including a picture of our second open water dive at Spanish Oaks Resevoir. We are loving it! Scott is enjoying a lot of lake dives and I am holding out for the ocean! Fair weather skiier and fair weather diver!!! I am SO over it!

2006-06-27T17:23:00.000-07:00

Your Linguistic Profile:

55% General American English

20% Upper Midwestern

15% Yankee

5% Dixie

0% Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

The Aura Test!!!

2006-06-27T11:30:00.000-07:00

A real fun find for those of you who are interested! As for me it is pretty accurate. Go ahead and click below....you know you are curious!

2006-06-27T11:27:00.000-07:00

Your Aura is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart.

You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone.

Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

What Color Is Your Aura?

My New Love!!!

2006-06-19T17:21:00.000-07:00

I am getting certified to scuba dive! Something I have always wanted to do and I am finally doing it! Scott and I are doing it together and I have been in the pool once to certify and I am dying to go again. We are going tomorrow (June 20th) morning to our first open water dive at the crater up in Midway! I am so excited I can hardly stand it! I knew it would be fun but not this much....I am so addicted I can hardly contain myself! We have plans to go lobster hunting in California in October and maybe another dive while we are there in November but I am ready for the Carribean or Austrailia. Ok....I will just go tomorrow and do my first open water dive and let you know how it goes! As you could probably guess my sign is cancer so I am thinking I am just a home sick crab! Boy do I LOVE the water!

R & R

2006-06-12T15:14:00.000-07:00

I had no idea how much I needed some rest and relaxation until I went on the annual Durfey sisters & Colleen weekend retreat. We sent to St. George for the weekend and had an incredible time! It wasn't necessarily one thing we did.....it was just a VERY girl weekend of shopping, eating, pampering, laying out by the pool, chick flicks, belly laughter and tears of tender girl moments! The best part of the weekend was coming home to a homesick husband and kids! (I love to be missed)
It always makes me appreciate my family SO much more when I am away from them. It was great to get butterflies when I walked into the house and saw Scott! It warmed my heart when Bowen hugged me tight for a looong time! I am THE luckiest woman alive!!! If you haven't had some R&R lately....I would stongly recommend it!! I feel great! (even on a Monday)

2006-06-05T15:23:00.000-07:00

JUNE?!

2006-06-05T11:18:00.000-07:00

Where in the world did May go??? I can't believe how fast time goes. My head is all over the place so I hope what I am about to write makes any sense at all. The first thing that I want to say is that I am really enjoying my Alchemist class. I remember when I first heard about it and expecially the cost and thought......maybe later. What a joke. I have had such an incredible growing and learning in the past 6 months that if I would have known then what I know now.....I would have done this years ago...paying 10 times as much with out a blink of an eye!
Can I also just say I will NEVER be the same! I feel like I have new eyes to see with.....new heart to love with..... new mind to think with....new feet to walk my journey and I sometimes don't even feel like my hands are really mine! Weird but true! I am so amazed at the perfect timing and learning that is placed before me on a daily basis. I think that I have been so pre-occupied by the stuff in my way not realizing that there is a message and learning in absolutely EVERYTHING! What an amazing process!
One of the activities we did last weekend is go back to eight years old and I am afraid I am stuck there. Good or bad it just is!
The last but most important thing I want to write about is my wonderful husband!! I am seriously the luckiest wife in the entire world! I had NO idea that marriage could be this magnificent and I want to scream it to the whole wide world! I am married to the most handsome, inteligent, gentle, loving, courageous, vulnerable, strong, sexiest man that walks this planet. For those of you that know him....know this to be true! For those of you who don't....meet him and hang out for a while and you will know it in no time! What ever it was I did to deserve him......I AM GLAD I DID IT!!! I LOVE YOU SCOTTY!

Things that make me smile!

2006-04-20T10:45:00.000-07:00

You know I must be simple minded or just easy to please because just about anything makes me smile! Besides kids....things that make me smile are:

Seeing people in love (young and old)
Dates with Scotty
Getting my nails done
Tanning and being in the sun
Water (rivers, streams, ocean, ditches, lakes, pools, waterfalls, puddles, etc)
Baby animals of every kind
Shopping for anything and everything
Good music and dancing
Holidays with family
Hugs from my dad
My Alchemist class
My burn on my foot (from walking on fire)
Getting a pedicure
The mountains
Skiing
Working in my yard
Vacation
Hanging with my girlfriends
Purses, Shoes, Clothes and Jewelry
Warm sunshine(y) weather
Reeses peanut butter eggs
Fridays
Clean sheets
Snuggling (with a little bite here and there)
Diet Coke with Lime
Flowers and more flowers
Driving on a warm day with the window down with Shania blaring
People that love life

I think I could go on and on and on...... Here's a big smile to all my friends!

GRATITUDE!

2006-03-31T10:55:00.000-08:00

You know it is not easy for me to blog, unless it is about silly or contrite things because it forces me to expose, open up and go outward. I am inward processor and for me to say it or type it opens the flood gate of true vulnerability. My fear is to not have it processed thoroughly and expose a little to early. YIKES! That can be a disaster and has been in the past. So......where I am today is in an overwhelming amount of gratitude for things, people and challenges (lead) in my life that is teaching me or should I say forcing me to stretch. I am SO grateful for my patient and loving husband that not only calls me on my crap daily but also loves and cherishes me as "his" Queen! I am grateful for my wonderful kids that remind me of the joys in life and are always showing me lots of love and acceptance! I am grateful for my friends that listen to me whine and remind to laugh at myself and have fun in the journey of life! I am grateful for my job and the opportunity I have to grow with the challenges and the rewards it offers on a daily basis. Taking me out of my comfort zone to stretch and learn more. ( I DO love a challenge) I am so full of gratitude today for the opportunity I have to turn my challenges, my lead, my trials into precious gifts of gold that I can cherish and remember throughout my awesome journey in life! By the way.......have you checked out the BEAUTIFUL flowers blooming all around us? I absolutely LOVE flowers in the spring (and all year for that matter) they are my gift from God reminding me how much he LOVES me!!! Here's to Gratitude and big "THANK YOU"!

FEELIN' GROOVY!

2006-03-02T08:14:00.000-08:00

I am on my 4th day off diet coke with lime! Yes.....I am doing it on purpose! I actually feel great! Scotty and I started a "cleanse" on Monday and he has been cheating like crazy and has lost 7 lbs. I cheated a tiny bit and have lost 1lb! UURRGGHH!!! I know, I know men always lose faster than women but all I am asking is 10 measly, tiny little pounds! So on Monday I thought I was going to die with withdrawls. I had massive headache and was exhausted. Even my co-workers were willing to give me an IV of diet coke. Scotty accused me of being ornery, which I kinda was. But I just went to bed early and Tuesday morning I felt like a million bucks! I wore my new lime green jacket, which takes me to the next part of my blog!
My St. George weekend! Can I just say I had an absolute blast!!! Jill and I went to the home show and then went shopping on Saturday. Mike and Scotty went 4-wheeling on the red dunes! It got up to 70 degrees so we took the top off the convertible. "Life is good" Jill knows all the good places to shop like......Christensens! Got some great sunglasses that look a little like a windshield. Jill told me they make me look like Jackie Kennedy so of course it was a must buy! I also found some great boots with a strap of *bling* *bling* around the ankle. They were even on sale! Jill found a great salmon colored jacket (Ann Taylor) I found my lime green jacket and so on the shopping goes on and on and on! Ate GREAT food, played with GREAT friends! Can't ask for much more than that!

I'M ALL ABOUT JOY!!!

2006-02-23T08:27:00.000-08:00

OK FINE........OH SO FINE!!!!

2006-02-22T14:04:00.000-08:00

So......I spoke too soon and my car quit running. (thanks for you positive comments Scott and Lianne) My 19 year old daughter moved out and I didn't buy my red watch in time and it is not on sale any more. OK FINE.......I had lunch (all you can eat Sushi) with my husband and my friend Lianne today, it's Liannes 50th birthday! I went to my friend Jan's last night to bead and made some incredible new, long necklaces that are fabulous! (can I also say we ate great food too) Jan also hooked me up with some great yoga information which I am doing for my alchemist project! I want to be a human pretzel! I got to see three of my alchemist friends Lynell, John aka: Poodle and David. I love their guts!!! As John would say "great energy." I am going to St. George with Scotty and our friends Mike and Jill this weekend and can I just say "PARTY!" I am praying for record breaking heat! I am NOT weighing in at WW tomorrow! (unanimous vote by me and Lianne) So there you have it! A great day in spite of myself!

WHAT A FEELING!

2006-02-17T10:30:00.000-08:00

I am feeling it! It's Friday and I am going to dinner tonight with my sweetheart to the Tuscany, it is dress down Friday so I get to wear one of my favorite pairs of jeans to work, I got my nails done last night, I bought a killer pair of brown shoes for $6.34 at Target last night, I am having a good hair day, I am wearing my favorite perfume (Beautiful-Sheer by Estee Lauder) that Scotty bought me for Valentines day, my sheets on my bed are clean, my car is running again, I have a diet coke with lime on my desk, the watch I want at chico's is on sale, my son has finally found a book he will read, and.....I feel good today!!!

What more can I ask for? (I better not answer that) hehehehe!

I AM......

2006-02-16T08:14:00.000-08:00

Someone will always be smarter. Their house will be bigger. They will drive a better car. Their children will do better in school. And their partners will fix more things around the house. So let it go and love yourself and your circumstances. Think about it. The prettiest woman in the world can have turmoil in her heart. And the most highly favored woman on your job may be unable to have children. The richest woman you know - she's got the car, the house, the clothes - might be heartbreakingly lonely. So, love you! Love who you are right now! Tell yourself, "I am too blessed to be stressed." I am a blessed woman! "To the world you might be one person, but to one person you just might be the world."

2006-02-15T15:46:00.000-08:00

I have no idea what to blog about today other than I know that I should blog! I have been experiencing an abundance of emotions since the last time I have blogged and I cannot peg just one to focus on or give energy to. It has been extremely intense, rejuvinating, exhausting, invigorating, etc. I have learned SO much about myself and my perception of things that have been my realities. I am in awe when I share some of "my" truths with others and they are dumb founded that I would even think that! Let me give you an example......

I have learned that I am judgemental and insecure because I am literally insecure walking in public, including into and around work wondering who is looking at me making fun of my outfit, my fat roles, the jewelry I am wearing, the way I did my hair, etc. It's ok if you are laughing because you aren't the first nor will you be the last. As a matter of fact as I am typing this I realize how ridiculous this is but it is very real in my world.

My awareness about this has opened the door to being confident and accepting. Not only of others but most importantly MYSELF! I am on a mission to love and accept myself (physically) just as I am! I don't need to change so that God and people like me better or more, they love me for who and what I am right now! The authentic Deb!

Self loving activities........

*read/listen spirtual books to feed my spirit
*get physical exercise 3-5 times a week
*buy a tanning pass "light therapy" (please don't tell my mom)
*eat healthier drink lots of water & eat 5 servings of fruits & veggies a day
*Pray and meditate DAILY
*Say 5 positive affirmations to myself in the mirror a day (outloud)
*Spoil myself with a massage, pedicure, facial, new outfit

(boy do I need balance or what)

2006-02-08T14:32:00.000-08:00

OH THE WISE ONES!

2006-02-07T08:12:00.000-08:00

The older I get the more I realize how much I don't know! There is so much information out there that goes unexpressed, unknown and never addressed. I personally feel that people themselves are a wealth of knowledge and experience. It is human beings that write books, perform studies, develop new cures to terminal diseases, invent incredibly useful devices that simplify my life. I can not imagine the intelligence and brilliance one must possess to be able to complete such tasks. Words can NOT express the overwhelming respect I have for such individuals.

Then comes the simple yet powerful knowledge of a child. Oh.... how I learn from the innocence of a child. I LOVE children! They are my biggest teacher! A child is the best example for me in staying present. Living in the NOW! They are SO loving, SO forgiving, SO trusting, SO giving! If I can remember that I once was a child and that is possible to become as a child in my attempt in staying present! In the NOW!

Staying Present

2006-01-31T07:43:00.000-08:00

I have recently realized how much I avoid and distract myself from staying in the present. I seem to allow my thoughts to move forward in time, forward in circumstance, looking in the past and even emotionally involving myself in others lives and circumstances. (hello co-dependence) I often find myself looking up obituaries, recently booked inmates just to stay out of my present space. I know I posess the gift of empathy and I find myself feeling empathy for the loss of loved ones I don't even know. Sending compassion and acceptance to those inmates with drug, alcohol and crime addictions. I even picture what it must be like to be in their shoes and what it must be like to be their mother, sister or friend. I send my love and prayers hoping somehow it may reach them. Me, a complete stranger, hoping for succes, peace and serenity for people I have NEVER seen.

SO......what is it that makes my life so unbearable that I indulge in others loss, pain, sorrow and misfortunes? What is it that is so uncomfortable in my "present" that I tend to distract myself from "self"? It may be that when I see others hurt, I go to gratitude in my own life. I often think I am picked on and I have always been told that "if you think you have it bad, just look around and it doesn't take long to find someone else worse off than you." Oh how true it is. I do find those that have it worse off than me.

Inventory time: Why do I have to see others pain to make myself feel better? Why do I have to see others pain to see my joy? Why can't I have gratitude,"just because"? Do I always need a reason or an excuse to be happy? Is this something I have been taught? Did I learn this on my own? What happens when I find those that are happy, free, serene and full of gratitude? Can I love myself and others with no conditions of circumstances? Can I love myself and others when there is love, acceptance and happiness everywhere? Can I only love myself and others when there is struggles and pains?

Being full of empathy has not always a gift for me. (or is it) Is it possible to have empathy for those that are happy, joyous and free? Do I indulge in joy and happiness when I am surrounded by those that are?

It would serve me to surround myself with those that have what I want. (what a concept) In writing this I have realized that it is time for a shift. Time to stay present! Stay in authenticity! Be real! Be true to self and others! Be happy! Be free! Be present!!!!

REMEMBER......

2006-01-27T08:35:00.000-08:00

The best way for me to say, “Thank you, God” is by letting go of the past and living in the present moment. Turning my will and my life over to Him. When I surrender and let go of the past, I allow myself to be fully alive and in the moment. Feeling.....really feeling joy, sorrow, excitement and freedom! I was born with the right to be happy! I was born with the right to love, to enjoy and share my life. I am alive, so I will live my life and enjoy it! I won’t resist life passing through me because that is God passing through me. My existence proves the existence of life, energy and love.
I don’t need to know or prove anything! Just to be, to take a risk and enjoy life! Say no when I want to say no, say yes when I want to say yes! I have the right to be me! I can only be me when I am doing my best and being authentic! I express my own divinity by being alive and by loving myself and others. I have to honor the woman that I am! Respect my body, enjoy it and love it! Feed, clean and heal my body. Exercise and do what makes my body feel free and alive! When I practice giving love to every part of my body, even the parts I don't like it plants love in my mind that will grow, I plant seeds in my mind, and when they grow up – I will love, honor and respect my body immensely.

RE-FOCUS!!!

2006-01-26T09:15:00.000-08:00

I find myself mentally obsessing about my weight and about my pale white skin. I don't know if I am jonesing for summer, fighting a bit of depression but I do know I am driving myself completely nuts! Here is my reminder picture that this is NOT my goal! Scott and I were looking at pictures from our cruise last January and I was SO tan.
So while I am wallowing in my blahs and pity....I had an dose of awareness from my 11 year old son, Bowen. He woke up extra happy this morning, looked outside and saw the fresh snow and began singing "It's the most wonderful time of the year!" Of couse it put a smile on my face and caused me to re-focus on the beauty of winter and the joys of ALL the seasons. Oh... the wisdom of a child. It IS the most wonderful time of the year and I am sincerely grateful for the reminder. I will enjoy (accept) my winter body. (white and thick) I will enjoy the winter weather and focus on the beauty of the time of year. I know when I have an attitude....try gratitude! (Thanks Bowen)

Ahhh Omens!!!

2006-01-20T10:54:00.000-08:00

Oh boy.....the last 48 hours have been a series of aahh-hhaa for me! I love the eyes of awareness that have been opened and anxiously looking for omens. What amazes me though is that it happens before my very eyes... works its stuff and it is then that I have this aahh-hhaa moment that smacks my awareness button and I begin to see and recognize the omen! It also amazes me how fast I jump into auto pilot and move to my old habits and beliefs and deny the fact that these omens are here to teach me, make me stretch, help me learn and grow into a pillar of truth and light. I am for the first time learning to appreciate the challenges and frustrations that I face and re-naming them as teachers. Now if I can remember to change my attitude and plead for peace, joy and strength to move forward with grace and ease, I will be a pillar of light with very strong footings! Excuse me while I trip for while. At least I am learning.......

2006-01-18T18:51:00.000-08:00

Here is my 15 year old Angel! Lexie will be 16 on April 26th and she is reminding me of that on a daily, sometimes hourly basis. She is always telling me how many days until her birthday. She just whispered 98 days. She started her drivers education class today! YIKES! If she wasn't so cute (she came that way)I would spank her! Isn't she a doll! This picture is sure to make anyone smile!

2006-01-17T10:15:00.000-08:00

I am here at work with my heater blowing on my feet playing island music and downloading tropical pictures on my computer. I am not a big fan of the cold weather even though I LOVE to snow ski. Living in Utah I get to be a fair weather skiier and man am I ever. I got new skiis for Christmas and I have used them once so far. I really do enjoy skiing.

I usually do what I call light therapy others call it a tanning bed but due to some skin cancer and melanoma in 1991 I have allowed the winter to go by without my light therapy. I miss it BAD!!!

I am life time member of weight watchers and I have re-committed to attend since I have gained 20 lbs since I married Scott. I lost 60 lbs in 2001 and it took me an entire year to lose all 60 lbs. My daughter Lexie was my inspiration. She was diagnosed with type I diabetes at age 9 and I decided after spending a week at Primary Childrens Hospital counting carbs that if she can do this I can too. She is such an AWESOME kid. She is truely my gift from God. I would like to lose 15 lbs and I have been naughty in my diet this weekend. I weigh in again Thursday and I am hoping I haven't done too much damage.

My quest for the day is finding balance in all areas of my life. Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and financially. (I have to add that because I have relapses of retail therapy that get me into $$$ deficiencies) I own it! I even had a dream last night that I spent every dime in my checking account at Talbots. I had no money left to pay bills. OUCH!!! I am glad I woke up!

About time!

2006-01-16T16:30:00.000-08:00

Here is my attempt to get computer saavy! My first blog posting. There is a part of me that hopes it doesn't get found until I learn more impressive things to put on my blog. My husband Scott and my dear friend Lianne are responsible for giving me the desire and my nose dive in starting this blog. Thanks and HELP!!!
As you can see I named my sight "Free Deb Rings." It is a reminder to me that I am FREE to be me!! That may sound weird but for me it is great. I actually like it beings I am a star spangled baby! I was born on the 6th of July and I knew, growing up that the parades, the carnivals, the fireworks and all the celebrating on the 4th were all in celebration of ME! I think I'll keep believing that! I love it!
I married the most incredible man that walks the planet on August 22, 2002. We played the Brady bunch story but we are the Durfey bunch and instead of Alice we have one extra kid and no Tiger for us. I am horribly allergic to dog poop! I may get out voted soon though they are all putting a lot of pressure on me to get a dog. Scott brought four wonderful kids into the marriage and I brought three awesome ones. What a great mix and I love how much love we have oozzing out the walls of our home! I wouldn't change a thing. Five of the seven children are teenagers and Scott and I are learning where our toes are. They keep us on them a lot! The youngest two are best friends! I hope that continues through their whole life.